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The near-death experience of Ingrid Honkala
Ingrid Honkala explains how she had a near-death experience, and why it has changed her vision of life and death.
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3:22 minutes, Ingrid Honkala:
'...something amazing happened I went from this state of absolute horror
to a state of absolute and complete peace whose state of serenity
it was just nothing to fight for anymore just peace
I also experienced the state of absolute silence
so was what I call the silence behind the silence
and another remarkable thing that gave a lot of contrast was that
this tank was very dark because it was made of cement so
when I fell into this tank I remember the last thing I saw was darkness
and right there when the sense of calmness happened there was a light and
there was a light that happened it it came from from below and now this light
was illuminating my entire watery surrounding just like OOOH
so I started to just look around and I saw bubbles suspended in the water and
the bubbles were surrounded by light and I started to chase these bubbles and
by chasing the bubbles was that I turn around and then I saw a body suspended
in the water and incredibly at that moment I knew that that was my body...'
[Music] my name is Ingrid Honkala and at the time of my near death experience I was living in Bogota Colombia where I grew up with my parents and my sisters I was only two years old near to three years old when the accident happened both of my parents had to work they left us in the house at the care of a maid she was a very very young lady that really didn't pay much attention to the things we were doing when my parents were not around as soon my parents left the maid just went to her room and decided just to go relax and listen soap operas I had two sisters at the time my older sister was close to four and the youngest one was just one year old my oldest sister and I just decided let's go play in a patio that was at the back of the house this is so clear in my mind I remember even like seeing two balls there in the patio and we saw the ball decided let's play catch we grabbed one of the balls and in a corner there was a big tank to collect water for hand washing clothes so what we just decided was like let's play catch across the tank this was a very high big tank so we found couple of stools my sister just went on top of the flat surface next to the tank where she was a little safer and I went to the other side so this was a very thin edge and what i did just bended my my legs and I just was leaning very precariously in this tank but at two years old who's going to think about any kind of danger just thinking about having fun so my sister she threw the ball at me and when she threw it she was little she didn't apply enough force for the ball to cross and it fell in the water and I saw the ball close enough that I thought I can grab it and when I leaned forward and tried to grab it it roll on the surface of the water and I fell the first feeling I had when falling into this water was the intense feeling of being freezing cold I was born in Bogota which is high up in the Andes and the temperature late at night and early in the morning can be between 30 and 40 degrees Fahrenheit so the temperature in the water was very cold the first feeling I had like this intense cold and it was the feeling of my chest had imploded and I couldn't breathe I could hear my sister even screaming and trying to get me from the surface but there's nothing she could do the last thing I could hear was my chest my heart pumping in my head really loud at that moment is when something amazing happened I went from this state of absolute horror to a state of absolute and complete peace whose state of serenity it was just nothing to fight for anymore just peace I also experienced the state of absolute silence so was what I call this silence behind the silence and another remarkable thing that gave a lot of contrast was that this tank was very dark because it was made of cement so when I fell into this tank I remember the last thing I saw was darkness and right there when the sense of calmness happened there was a light and there was a light that happened it it came from from below and now this light was illuminated my entire watery surrounding so I started to just look around and I saw bubbles suspended in the water and the bubbles were surrounded by light and I started to chase these bubbles and by chasing the bubbles was that I turn around and then I saw a body suspended in the water and incredibly at that moment I knew that that was my body I was born as a very sick child I was ill all the time I had respiratory problems I was always sick now I was in a state of absolute well-being so when I saw the body in the water I thought I'm not going back to that why would I want to be there where I am seeing where I am NOT free where I feel trapped so my first thought was like I'm leaving I can leave this body behind and as I was experiencing this state of being in just a blink I appear in the maid's room like if I was looking at her from above and oh I just was seeing her lying on her bed and the memory of this is so clear that I can even remember the soap opera that she was listening in the radio and I just said oh that's Maria but she was completely unaware of what was happening so from there in again just a second I appear in my mum's path and she was like I said on her way to work she's left the house it took about ten minutes to go from the house to her bus stop at the time she didn't have a car she had to walk and that's what happened I just appeared on her path and when I saw her from above again like like with the maid I just said thats mom and at that precise moment she felt that something was happening at home it's like I could sense her thinking she stopped and she thought something is happening with one of my babies she turned around and started to run back home I just looked at her but at the same time I got distracted but the realization that wherever I put my mind I could go so if like whoa if I put my mind at the end of the street I will be there if I would just see an animal whatever it was I will be there so for me time and space vanished and I could be anywhere at any time there was not limitations of anything you could actually feel and know everything happening with everybody and in again just a flash I appear in a realm that was made of absolute pure bright light and this is what makes this extremely hard to forget and is that for the first time in the in these three years of my life I felt that I was home so it was the sense of like ah I'm finally home actually this experience was more real than this reality and I felt that I was being welcomed at that moment is when the sense of self started to dissolve and I started to become one with the whole beyond this I experienced what I said to people is that the sense of non-self or the sense of nothingness there's no sound there's no color there's no movement there's no meaning there's no description at this point that was not even thought it's like all that was gone you just complete a state of oneness I became existence itself and while I was experiencing this state of being my mom finally made it home and she knew exactly where to go she directed herself to the back of the house right there in like in this flat surface she found my sister my mom just went into the tank got me out and she said that I was just like a raggedy doll my limbs were blue I was completely white there was no really life and there was no life in this body I was so detached from this reality that I was not concerned with this at all this was already gone my mom like everything in life is designed perfectly for the purpose that we're coming here to do so the purpose of my mom at that moment was to get me out of this tank and save me so incredibly she was trained CPR because she worked with children otherwise she would not have known what to do and she got me out of the water she did what she had to do to revive me again like everything happened in this experience in just a flash I felt that I had jumped from the tallest building in the world I felt the sense of being vacuumed back like if you just jump from from an airplane from a building and is this vacuum feeling like and I was being pulled and there was nothing I could do to stop this and I knew I was back because all the feelings of discomfort coldness and sickness and the lack of freedom was back and I was not very happy to be back so that was the beginning of things becoming really hard for us and I started to get sicker than before I refused to eat and I would just go to the mirror look at myself and scream to my mom and say you don't understand this is not me this is not my name and I should not be here I'm not this child this is just the state of my body but I am NOT a child I had an awareness that I did not have before when I looked at my parents I realized that they were not just my parents I felt them as my equal and I also came back with abilities that I didn't have before not long after I could read and I could write and I could resolve mathematical problems and I could put together complex puzzles so it was something people around me my mother they were in disbelief with what was happening with this child and I couldn't relate with other children because to me it was like they don't know anything what's going on with these people and at the time they was not like today internet or the TV or or the books or any materials that could bring them to understand what was happening there was not really any knowledge about near death experiences in Colombia people didn't know any of this and Colombia was a country at war so my parents were more concerning how will we survive and live the day-to-day life they kind of continue living life and say we hope she will get better and actually yes it happened because when when things when were really really hard and I was in the worst of all the moments the help that I needed came in the most remarkable way in the sense that I was being taken to the realm of the light during my asleep at the time I didn't know that I was having out of body experiences and although all that was kind of disturbing I wanted to happen because he was bringing me to that realm of the light then I guess at the time the only thing I enjoy really doing was going to sleep and in one of these journeys one day I was completely surrounded by the star-like figures that were shining in all different colors and I was like wow there's a being of light and now they are here it approached me and did it touch me and at that moment I said you are a being of light by being in their presence and feeling that that estate of of home that I was experiencing in in that realm of the light made me feel so well that I started to heal I started to eat and I started to communicate with everyone again and and I just started to feel joyful and happy and although they didn't know or do anything the sense of love was such that nothing else was needed and that was the teaching I got from the very beginning everything is going to be okay and although I couldn't understand that many times how this can be okay that was always the teaching everything is happening for a reason and everything is following a path of perfection we just don't know this because we're just living and understanding a very little piece of the picture we don't know what anything is for and later in my life I learned that the purpose of these was the beings of light wanted to show me that home was not a place home was a state of being home heaven is here and now although I was already feeling better and starting to just feel like I could communicate and sense more well-being I was very detached to my persona so I would look at myself and I will like listen to my name and say this is this is not my name and there was an occasion in we now we had our new maid in the house and she was calling me for dinner and I wouldn't come and she approached me and she said I am calling you Ingrid I'm calling you for dinner and I said don't call me like that that is not my name and she just said so what is your name how should I call you and I said I do not need one that night they sent me to bed like oh yeah we had enough of you and that was the first time the beings so like talk to me they said to me it is going to take time for them to understand Wow there was now not just presence but there also sound like to understand what and they said to understand that in the realm of the light names are not needed as you already know so it's like this kind of communication where there's sound that is not the same kind of sound we hear here there's no female there's no male I don't think we're actually hearing with our ears it's like the inner ears that is very clear another thing the beings of light said to me when they started to talk first with me was that I had to remain quiet because they were not going to understand and I would be like what do you mean they're not going to understand this was my state of reality so like what is not to understand and but yeah really really soon I realized what they were saying I was born in a country where 98% of the population was Catholic and they were completely closed to anything it was a point where I went to talk to our priest and he said you have to sit there and pray because this is the devil talking to you do you was another thing when I came back like I said I had abilities for me was very easy because I didn't have to learn anything I was just remembering or at school I will go and I know this and I know I know that and the teacher will be like if you know everything you sit in that corner and let us be so in every sense I was ostracized I cannot show these abilities I cannot talk about these things and it kept happening through time but the beings of light also said to me you will never be alone and people is going to appear in your path to help you people are going to be there to guide you as we will be guiding you to [Music] and it was around five years old when I went to kindergarten that my mom actually discovered that for real I was seeing something because before she was like oh yeah maybe she you know the kids you always see children and my yes they're imagining things we don't take them serious but when I went to school and I started to draw everything with auras and everything I was drawing with everything even in my notebooks and everywhere I was painting and star-like figures the teacher came and she's like what is this here at least the Sun and the stars and I said no those are my friends the beings of light I'm seeing these things and I told my mom mom these are the colors that we were and these are my friends the beings of light I wanted somebody to believe me and my mom looked at me with these mama eyes like don't say a word and then we left that day the school and on the way home we were sitting in the bus and she looked at me and she said I believe you I also see things that nobody see so it's when she revealed to me that she could see spirits and she has been seen a spirit since she was five years old but just like me she had learned to remain quiet because he was not safe to talk about that there was a time in my life when I would ask them what can I do or say to these people that don't believe they said to me something really beautiful he said to me do or say nothing the light of your awareness is all they need that is not the things we go saying is the way we are is who we are be the light be that awareness and with that your doing the work and that's what I did the time to talk will come so of course it was still these discordance you know I always have trying to live a life at a school and I was always different so never had many friends was always kind of bullied and ostracize my oldest sister became my protector just wherever we were she's like protecting me from anybody when I was trying to harm me and when I went to college things weren't even harder for me because now I had sisters that were very beautiful boys were coming into our lives now it was all these time where they everybody's hormones these are their peak and I was so different I didn't feel what anybody felt I want to be like you guys I want to be normal I don't want to be this person I don't want to be different and that I started to come really hard on me I don't want to be different so at the time of my life I could not really appreciate my uniqueness I'll reach the point where now my uniqueness was a burden so I joined college and I is when I told the beings of light I want to be like everyone else and at the same time there was situations were very hard on my parents were at the verge of divorcing things were going hard for me like when all the challenges come together I guess this is the moment where these two very deep questions knock the door in my life I asked when did we stop being one with the whole and how is it possible to forget who we truly are [Music] I kept asking the being so like why me why this is happening to me and it's when they answer to me in 20 years you will understand what 20 years imagine and even at 20 years is like forever and a day and they say someday you will pass these teachings to others no I've done it all my life I will not interested I want to become a scientist I'm not interested I'm not teaching this to anyone I ask the beings of light just to give me a break pretty much I wanted to be like everyone else and this is the compassion of the universe with no force I mean at that moment it was like okay you're not going to see us or hear us for a while when you are ready it will happen I needed to ground so I needed to choose a career and I needed to choose things that would ground me in this world because up to that moment I felt like I was a helium balloon I was floating in another I was not here now I needed an anchor to bring me down I decided I wanted to become a marine scientist when I was four my parents took me to see the ocean for the first time and when I saw the ocean I turned to my mom and say someday I'm going to know what is under that blanket I developed this love for the water now I wanted to know the definitions of everything so now I put my dial in a different frequency and the communication now was and I say to people is like when you're in a room that is full of furniture like here now there's furniture everywhere but if the light is on then what you don't trip you know where to go I know where the door is I know where everything is but what happens when you turn off the light now all the things in the room become obstacles everything becomes a challenge but what is the purpose of those challenges to bring you back to turn on that light for yourself so all these is put in our path for us to go back through our own experience through our own perception to the state of knowing to the state of oh I am I am now remembering who I truly am so that's why the human experience is one of the the most amazing ones because it brings so much contrast that we can see the other side so for me I turn off the light in the room and now 20 years of challenges once you lose your authentic self you become so separated to who you truly are you lost so through those years time for me I started to worry about things I never worried before and and money become a problem and not having the right friends become a problem and now having there I had met abusive people and my job brought me to live in a war zone I saw extremes of poverty I saw people were being massacred and we used to do drills all the time because we could be attack at any moment the very first day I arrived to this place it was a shooting outside the base and now I was experiencing that war it was really really hard reality so I had a boss that was on top of living this area he was really strict and nothing was okay and this area was also known for tsunami natural disasters or just like okay what else I used to go to to the field to collect samples and I had to go with two guys full armed with m16s to be safe and at this point like rebels were dropping bombs everywhere it was a disaster so it's when one of my co-workers one evening said I'm going to go out of this base because I'm not going to remain here but because we were scientists working with the government we were military targets and we were told not to leave the base so when these guys say we're not I am NOT a prisoner here he left that evening and he got killed now I met who is my husband today and he was with the Navy he said you have to come to the United States things are getting really harder you're going to get killed but it was hard to leave this job because in Colombia only 4% of the budget goes to science for me to get this job and this good position I was the chief of the marine biology and ecology department I had a really good job so it would like I could not leave these I mean I got this opportunity how I can leave this job but there's a moment in your life that you reach this point that none of these was anything when your life it's at peril when now you realize that your happiness is gone we came to the United States and only like three days after we married somebody got hurt they needed him to travel he left for seven months and left me alone United States and didn't know anybody is when I realize I'm lost in this world and I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder so like it's like one challenge follow the other and after that he was a special forces in the Navy and he kept traveling and although I kept meeting other dreams that were incredible I I got the opportunity to do my PhD to work with NASA I had my baby at the same time it was facing the fact that I was alone my husband spend all his time traveling my family was not in the US I had to raise this child alone he was really sick baby when when he was little I had heart problems so he like one thing follow another another so I reached the point where I just was thinking why all these is happening it's been one hardship follow the other I even felt since I was little because I couldn't understand when I was young why I came with all these awareness why I was different and now I was all these challenges and one night I went to bed and I was just thinking I had it I had enough the only thing keeping me alive at that moment of my life was my little baby he was the light of my life at that moment and he was the one keeping me here one night I was lying there next to my little one and this is things that brought me to feel so much empathy for the people that suffers because sometimes people commit horrendous crimes but we don't understand why and we just really quick to criticize or to judge but I remember lying next to him and thinking I love him so much that I cannot leave this world without him and when I looked at him next just lying next to me I thought what it what what if I take him with me so it was a second of thinking something so horrible and I just learned at that moment and I thought what am I thinking I lost that now I was lost and it's when I went back to pray again I went back to the complete and absolute desire to be connected with the light again I need some light and I pray like I had never pray I had to stop praying and meditating because I have made so many mistakes that I thought I wasn't worth it of the beings of light and and it was amazing because once this I prayed the answers came immediately when I realized no one is judging me I'm the only one judging myself there is a point in your life that life shakes you so hard that you only have two choices there's only two paths the paths of suffering or the path of the light the path of suffering is is like a cul-de-sac you go to the end of these and there's no where to go or is like when you're in a car and you turn it on you press the gas but you never put the drive the car in drive you don't go anywhere you're spending all your gas you're spending all your energy you're circling in there nothing is happening until you realize I had enough of these some people have to get sick somebody has to die you feel that you're going to just kill yourself whatever it is brings you and shakes you so hard that you are forced to stop and is when you ask the question what is this for what am I doing here now the important questions start coming and is when they answers also start happening it's when you say at that point when sometimes I I am just so trapped in things I don't understand I said god help me see because I cannot see but I know that behind this challenge there is a teaching there is a purpose and the very next day I got I woke up with the answer I needed I said to people sometimes they are the most simple answers the answer was yeah you need help don't look for a psychologist yeah and I had it clear it was not just as all I may do it no it was clear I went this morning to my office I look for a psychologist I found a guy in the web and it was the right person I went to talk to him and is when we realized that sometimes what we truly need is just to be listened and this person was opening to listen this guy is not judging me and how was the opening for me I was the one that said to him why me again this question I always was resolving resourcing and why me why this is happening to me and he's when I've got the most amazing answer and he said why not for me this was like the swish I needed at that moment the light I turned off was on now because at that moment he started to also say look thanks to these you have done these thanks to these you have done that thanks to these and this and I was able to connect all the dots and now it's like all my neurons everything was like accelerating and everything was connecting and this was the first time in my life I put myself at the cause of everything and not at the effect and I started to see purpose in absolutely everything at that moment I also realized that none of that had happened was here anymore it was in my mind and I could decide what to do with that how I can grab all these and just make a decision to start fresh the true feelings of sense of forgiveness happened it was the realization that there was nothing to forgive because nothing had ever been done to me to hurt me it's being done for me to bring me to wake up so this was one of my very first big awakenings now I was in the absolute knowing that source or the creator or God or ultimate reality however we want to call it with the essence of absolutely everything everything was it and at that moment is when I realize that 20 years had passed as they had said because the two questions I asked 20 years before were answer how we stop being one when do we stop being one a how is even possible to forget who we truly are and the answer came like again no time not 20 years had passed and the answer was one never stopped being one one never left the source one just became distracted and seemingly forgot so what is the purpose of time and they say the purpose of time and experience is to help you remember who you truly are is to bring you back to source so it's when my life just completely turned upside down and my book has started to happen and it's when I was able to finally start opening and becoming that teacher they told me I was going to be so it just needed all these years of preparation to to be where I am today and to be able to open up and like they say the time to talk will come but another important thing and something I learned through all these years was also to remain humble because the beings of light said to me you're not here to convince anyone of anything your path is the path of gentleness and that's how we have to be because otherwise we start another war I am right or wrong know how we actually listen to each other how we actually share that love and share that connection and he's when I also started to ask the right questions the beings all said to me in the right question reside the right answer and that's how through my whole childhood and and on young years and through my life when I was able to study all the teachings I studied it was a point that I was learning things from hinduist Buddhism teachings of Kabbalah Vedanta Christianity Indian cultures of the Americas and ideas of sixteen I already knew that the core of all teachings was the same and it was unconditional pure love and that we will confuse with all the rituals and we stay in the outside and knowing what was important the core of things love and unity you follow the path of love you are in the right path you [Music] look how the world how we can say that things are going better for some when the world is in such disaster and people come to me with the feeling of this empowerment and they say what can I do I'm just one person of look at the world what all these teachings can do for the world and I said you can do everything or you can do nothing it all depends you can do nothing if you see the problems of the world as a whole so I put the example of a house say that that you have a big castle and the castle is in absolute mess every room everything in this house in this castle is just disorganized it was a huge fire a mess a disaster the moment that you think that you can clean all this house in one morning in one minute in one moment the feeling of overwhelming is such that you will become disempowered what can you do nothing so you cannot see the problems of the world as a whole because then you disempower yourself but the moment you think how what if I start room by room what if I start by clearing up the kitchen what if I cannot even do the whole kit what if I start by the table and little by little the moment you organize this space and you pat yourself in the shoulder I did this so now you put in that that you're learning in practice you're empowering yourself I can do something peace start which each one of us the moment respect that others do it the moment I look outside and say look at the mess outside I cannot do anything I lost the battle at the moment I say I am this being capable of loving capable of giving the now I am becoming that light and each one of us can be the light in the path of each other I am NOT a light that is going to work alone because one light is easy to be blown away by the wind but what if I start doing like we're doing here another person that already discovered I have that in your life I have that inner power and all these lights start joining and now we become a huge flame and this is actually happen in this moment in the world although there's still a lot of chaos out there there's a lot of people waking up right now a lot of people have been shaking so hard but all these challenges and all these hardships that we're starting to realize what can we actually do what can I do myself in the end I would say perception is projection so so we're perceiving what we project if I am a person that is a data state of anger and fear and I see life with the eyes of hardship that's what I'm getting back if I'm looking at myself in the mirror and I'm frowning I cannot expect the mirror to be doing anything else when people try to change things at the level of the form I said to them you're wasting your time this is already a result you cannot change anything here you have to go at the level of the cause you have to go within you have to see things with the eyes of wisdom what is this for what is the purpose of these how can I do to be the light in this situation I am the change that the world needs it has to start from me there's nothing outside why are you here what is your purpose while you're presenting in my life so we start practicing awareness in our life I said awareness is the key to freedom we become so trapping our thinking that we cannot see anything that is just working for us and all the synchronicities and things that are happening for us and have all been in front of our eyes we cannot see it because the moment we catch something oh we missed already a lot there was a time where the beings of light said to me you think that you're thinking you're never thinking I said I think I think all the time and they said no people think they're thinking about what they're doing is just trapping memories you live your life trapping your own memories that's why when children are just learning is like everything is new everything is cool everything is magic but guess what as we grow up it's all the same all the same so the only time you're truly thinking is when you'll connected with the creative thinking of the universe and this only can happen when you are at the state of No Thought or the state of presence now we're living our mind open as a channel the answers to a problem didn't happen when we were stuck in it it cannot be because what happened you're feeling yourself from memories you're always going to go back to the same and the answer come is when like we are out there in the park or relaxing I forgot everything about it at that moment you heard the birds during the state of contemplation at that moment you connected and is when the true answer comes I do some practice I one of my favorite favorite practices now is I do walking meditation I go in this road I even closed my eyes and I walk in the state of absolute awareness I heard every bird every leaf I can sense the wind I can hear every cricket I hear my steps when you're going to be able to breathe right now wherever you are you are in a state of presence and now we start perceiving and seeing things with the eyes of clarity [Music] everything has a purpose and even even the religions and everything the philosophies everything that the humanity has gone through was needed at some point so those are all the little tools everything is a process like when we go to school we don't start in college we start in kindergarten and from there we go but the problem is when we get stuck in the same class if I repeat first grade for the next 30 years so there's no revolution anymore now we're stuck in the same and that's what happened with a lot of the concepts a lot of the ideas a lot of the beliefs is just being stuck in the same only now that people are starting to ask the questions because this question have been formulated through all the history of humanity but just by few Who am I but in my purpose this all it is what if is more when we start asking these questions that we started all been seeking for something new and all of us that have all these experiences are being able to talk because now I know that that person had it on that person now people start being feeling safe safer to talk and there's more more conferences and more groups and more people that are coming outside the box and knowing that there's more there's more I'm feeling that I want to talk but sometimes before the big awakening the source of even bigger challenge before you wake up there's the alarm clock well there's somebody shaking you awake so that's sometimes what is needed and the world is now facing that that point in which there's a lot going on but it has just kind of like the earthquake that is needed for people to go to these realizations I had enough I had enough of these is when we move around the couch I I put the example of a bird that in a nest then life will push you so hard that now you make the decision I better jump and the moment you jump and spread the wings now you realize I can fly so if all these challenges didn't happen you never knew that you could actually fly